/ something going on the outside, too much missing on the inside

today after school, cabbed back home, and carried all the junk, that stupid junk to clear my table for EOYs.
came home, talked on the phone with hon until 4.30 plus,
totally didn't even revise anything, i dont know, if i'll make it through.

mugging is hard, and its getting harder and harder.
but think of the life after the exams.
gonna do my hair, finally. i need it done, desperately! :O
i need to go for a hair wash, a good one too.
not sure what i want to cut for the hair, so probably i'll just want to wash it first.
i think paris hilton and jennifer love hewitt have pretty hair :D
where shall we go cut it? no more supercuts :/ though the gay guy there is really hilarious! HA HA
shopping after that, i need to get some new clothes.
i haven't gone shopping for about a month and a half :/

i seriously need to start working on my geography.
i dont care, tmr during class i'll not pay attention and just mug mug mug.
because geography is my first first first paper!
zomg.

things to do:
mug for geog,
hist,
science,
maths,
chinese.

things to do after EOYs:
go get my hair done
do some decent shopping
get new stuff
buy new things
pray hard to get into double sciences
going to sentosa
going to the night safari
shopping marathons
new shoes


so many things to do, i'm looking forward to it.
i'm scared of my end of years results.
super, i need to work hard, i need to just work harder for a few days.
and on the 8th of october, 10am, i'll be free of the chains.
the chains of hell.
i've got to remember that i'm working hard for my ownself, not cause i owe anyone anything.
if i blow my chance to get into double sciences, i can drop dead already.

enough of EOYs, they are the worst nightmare anyone could ask for.
after the darkness and sadness there will be happiness.

feeling so suffocated,
i can hardly breathe,
hold back my opinions.
sit down and keep my mouth shut,
sit at the dinner table,
enough of the nagging,
i'm through with the stress.
learn how to compose yourself,
teach yourself new lessons,
and handle it like it mean nothing to you.
because it'll be overcomed one day,
and my thoughts will be locked deep down inside.