/love will keep you up all night

i'm still up, not tired, surprisingly.
really glad that daphne's back
someone to talk to, again.

got into biochem class, not the C one though.
sigh, dont know about stuff.
i'm afraid i'll be all alone next year.
new class, dont know who's going to be in my class
hope there will be people i can talk to,
like about stuff.

i need to work hard next year
but i'm not sure if i'll be able to make it.
i say only, maybe can't even do it

i dont like studying
tired of studying.
dont like having to stay up late,
thinking that i wont pass the testpapers.
dont like the feeling of being alone.

the one you hate to love is made for you
tired,
can't fall asleep again
going to make the christmas decorations for my family
i'm going to celebrate my birthday with my family&friends
my fourteen-th birthday,
i'll make sure i enjoy it.

for once, i want to be happy,
not be happy for everyone else to see
i'm not sad,
just tired of being something i'm not
someone be my listening ear?

how would i know this would end,
before we begin?