Take the gamble



This morning went for children's liturgy with esther and the rest. Then aft that headed back to the church and went for mass with esther, andrea and justin. Went for my RCIC, and had alot of fun with the stupid people:D Aft RCIC, went to buy my meng's stuff and mummy fetched me home.

Mummy left today ): Sigh, i feel kind of sad without mummy. sigh. I miss bf alot alot ): Today, i felt horrible. I hate it whenever i get back my report book. Screw _\_ Probably no computer, no tevee, no everything. I'm like the living dead. Study all day long. 6 chapters a day. So much for a holiday. I fucking so upset today. I hate it, so irritating. If you think i'm going to fail and that i will retain then think your own way, i'm so sick and tired. I feel like giving up. No hope, i'm a goner.

Sometimes, i feel so angry i wish i could die in my sleep. I hate having to study. I want to grow up, and have everything planned already. I HATE studying. But for the sake of getting everyone off my back i have to fucking continue studying. Sigh, i have no right to be angry right. Its my fault that its like this. I'm so sick and tired. But no, everyone thinks it so easy. Then you do it lah! F it, i'm really so tired now.

I miss my mummy, i wish bf was here now ):