/the one i can depend on

tomorrow is camp
really dont feel like going :/
no enthuciasm, totally ruin's the whole thing doesn't it.

birthday coming soon, but really dont want to celebrate,
i've lost the spirit of celebrating my birthday.
right now, i just need to find something.

i feel as though i have to find something,
like something's missing.
but i dont know what that something is.
continue finding, until i find it.

i'm tired of feeling horrible.

i'm not a perfect person,
there are many things i wish i didnt do.