/close my eyes to your gaze

sigh, i think i'm hopeless.
sweetone got problem at sch again,
and i'm not helping.
but i'm sorry, i dont know why but i felt damn moody today.
i'm just sensitive, but thats how i am.
its like that, expectations are falling.
i just dont think i can hold myself together anymore.

i can't find excuses for myself to believe things anymore.
i just feel as though i should just give up on myself, and keep looking straight.
i'm feeling super no mood.

sch sucks.
i hate having to face so-and-so now.
so horribly terrible.
i see such hypocrites, and then i just cant help but feel bad.
i hate being with such liars.
you miss something cos its gone.
cos there's nothing left to replace that.
fine, anything.
i think i'll just clam up like a shell, and stfu.
thanks xiongdi for cheering me up and always asking me not to be sad, and our secret handshakes.
thankyouthankyou.
lets do the handshakes every morning!

i look forward to school tomorrow, although there's oral, but i cant wait to see xiongdi men.
that's all to look forward to.
love you guys so.

break me open,
tear me down into pieces