Monday, 10:14am

Last night, i stayed up making wild guesses-that got me nowhere. Today my mood is affected by the wild guesses that is going to make me a mean person. I think that everything has changed. And nothing really does stay the same. People say good things come to an end, and i'm afraid that end would come soon. I don't have a peace of mind right now. I feel like such a disappointment. I'm a waste of space. Sigh, i miss somebody, but somebody doesn't miss me.

I love my somebody,
Wont's somebody say he loves me too?

Take the gamble



This morning went for children's liturgy with esther and the rest. Then aft that headed back to the church and went for mass with esther, andrea and justin. Went for my RCIC, and had alot of fun with the stupid people:D Aft RCIC, went to buy my meng's stuff and mummy fetched me home.

Mummy left today ): Sigh, i feel kind of sad without mummy. sigh. I miss bf alot alot ): Today, i felt horrible. I hate it whenever i get back my report book. Screw _\_ Probably no computer, no tevee, no everything. I'm like the living dead. Study all day long. 6 chapters a day. So much for a holiday. I fucking so upset today. I hate it, so irritating. If you think i'm going to fail and that i will retain then think your own way, i'm so sick and tired. I feel like giving up. No hope, i'm a goner.

Sometimes, i feel so angry i wish i could die in my sleep. I hate having to study. I want to grow up, and have everything planned already. I HATE studying. But for the sake of getting everyone off my back i have to fucking continue studying. Sigh, i have no right to be angry right. Its my fault that its like this. I'm so sick and tired. But no, everyone thinks it so easy. Then you do it lah! F it, i'm really so tired now.

I miss my mummy, i wish bf was here now ):

Only fooling myself

Today was teachers day! Hohos, and it was v.funny!:D Sec.4 teachers were the funniest! Today didn't watch wall-e with yq&kp, but i hope can go sentosa soon!:D The funniest thing was that yy also asked me to watch wall-e with her tmr!:D Hahaha, but i couldn't go. So poor thing, i rejected a 3 year old ):

Okay, so today went to bf's place to cook. Was supposed to go supermarket shopping, but then sch ended late, so couldnt. Ordered pizza:D Hohos, he cooked for me seaweed chicken!:D

You know, i just realised, bf has bought me so so many bears, that i cant remember when i got all of them. Hahahaha, i still got alot more!











They're all cute!:D Hahaha, okay, off to bed now, sleepy, bye!:D

I love b, i love my family, i love my friends:D

Disturbia

Its been so so long since i last posted! Yes, its going to be the holidays in 1 day:D Hohos, its major studying right now. EOYs coming, and everything else :/ Bleh i have to do better! I'm motivated to do better, seriously:D Hahahaha, study groups! And my new blogshop is changing to livejournal. Everything is so so busy! ): I need to get change for tuition, updates soon!

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Today i've got chinese tuition again :/ At 1230. Got to study too. EOYs coming soon. Sigh, must study hard. Bf is going to teach me:D Yay! He hasn't replied my msg yet luh ):

Just finished chinese tuition, and was looking through my stuffs. I need to go shopping:D Bf's going to bring me! But i dont know when yet :/ And yq and i haven't been to the beach, so again, thats something that i want to do this holiday. I better start mugging. Barely a month to EOYs and i dont feel too prepared :x Gotta study hard. 50% of EOYs is to see if i can move to sec.4. Must pass 3 subs including english. Suddenly feel very scared. Sigh, what am i to do. Just got to do my best! Things are improving. Just want to do okay for my end of years and olevel this year. Help me, god.

I want to make my own teddy bear:D I can go to build-a-bear workshop which is at plaza sing, or i can go get my teddy from gift greetings at great world!:D Want to go to Victoria Jomo at Haji too:D But right now i think i should just study first. Alright, bye!:D
beep beep, reply! ):

Sprained ankle

Havent been going to school for 2 days now. But i'll go back on monday:D Yesterday was mummy's birthday!:D I bought her a card:D And i'm sewing something for her:D I hope she likes it! I love mummy:D

Today was xy's birthday!:D Didn't manage to go to school because couldn't walk. Went to doctors, got my mc. And can't do pe. Man :/ I really wanted to go to sch, but couldn't ): Anyway. Had a good day today!:D

Called bf today, and going to talk to him later:D Yay!

I love bf, i love my family, i love my friends:D

I sprained my ankle

Today sprained my ankle, hurts like helllll. This morning fell down because my ankle felt like jelly. Couldn't walk properly. Went to school, yq helped me!:D So i hopped all the way to the canteen, then got too tired, then started walking again. HAHAHA. Aft that, took chem test. It was so much more difficult than the first paper. Screw, so i mean. Thats unfair, really. Then went for bio, did the starch test, then aft school went to meet bf!:D Didnt need to walk at all. Sry for not being able to accompany you esther! ):
Bf was damn funny!:D But my ankle got worse. I nearly cried. But ate ice cream:D Bf carried me down the stairs!:D V.strong! And then cabbed home.

My ankle is alot better now, thanks!:D Maybe going to sch, maybe not. Yay, bye!:D

I love bf!:D

Treat you right

Dont know why, but right now i feel so used. Urg, i hate that feeling really. _\_ I'm so so so feeing angry/sad/upset. I'm oversensitive. But whatever, i'm so sick of it right now.

School was fine, had alot of fun aft sch. Laugh laugh laugh. B today not in v.good mood. And then elit thing is screwed. Okay, i'm so weird, i'm going off now. Can't be bothered about anything already.

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aishyn:she sucks she sucks! )< rarr!
SHIJIE:You all today slack lah!:D Hahahaha did you stay in starbucks the whole time?
valerieHahaha alright, do you want me to link you?
Denise!Hurr, thanks for listening to me rant:D Lets eat soon alright?

Love like this

Friday
Went for tuition at kovan. Maths was v.fun!:D Yenyee&grandma sent me there, and waited with me. The car trip was not that long, and then i ended up being v.early for tuition.






Yep, so had dinner at hougang mall. Ate thai express:D Went to buy fruits and headed home.

Saturday
Went for flag day today!:D Was a rough start in the beginning. Didnt dare to ask anyone for donations, asked jy to help me. Then aft a while walked to wheelock, and then alot of donations:D Hahahaha my tin was heavy! Alot of people there donated:D Coins and notes. Gave the little kiddies more stickers:D Then aft went to douby ghout with twin&kp! Then kp keep asking us to ask from th ahbeng&ahlians. Then twin and i all dont dare, LOL:D And then in th end tsk ruined my whole day. _\_ Dont want to talk about it. Went home aft cip, then went for church.


Came home, and then rested:D Going to study chem v.hard. Must prove myself! Rarrr )< Bite you. Dont need to go back popo's place today. Yay, tmr going to teach little kiddies again!:D Will be alot of fun. Mummy left today ): I miss mummy.

Today b had his match, and his team played v.well:D Hoho, knew you guys could do it! B then went t wk's birthday party. Not sure what time he'll be back. But i hope he will call me soon! I got alot of things to tell himmm. Okay, bye!:D

I love my family, i love b, i love my friends:D

Bf:Sigh, bf i got alot of things to tell you, i miss you ):
aishynI tell you, i'm so so so angry.
SHIJIE:Alrights then, dont worry okay?:D Happy is the way to go.

F you, tsk

I hate tsk. F you, just cos i supposedly, 'did exceptionally well' then i cheated lah. F you. Keep saying i cheated, and some more ask me t stand up. Pls have some respect and shut the f up. Go ruin everyone's day. So hm, if i fail then only i didn't cheat is it? Wow, no idea how you even made it as a teacher. Look down on us, only investigating us. And you pressure me to tell you that i cheated. Dont fking stare at me like i cheated becos i didn't cheat. You're not fit to be our teacher. You dont want to listen to our explanations. Are you going to give me a 0? F you. I hope that one day you'll know what it feels to be put in our place. Becos you dont even know, you assume. Give a zero? You're such a whatever. What goes around comes around. Ihy, really. WHY DO YOU KEEP PICKING ON ME. LEAVE ME ALONE. Well so be it, assume whatever you want. I studied for the test. So is it becos i cheated thats why i did well? Okay, whatever you say. Today didnt feel good at all. Got scolded by chinese tcher. And this one is another one. Keep calling me. Today i didnt bring textbook and suay suay come call me. F you too.

Went for recess, thank you nehneh, for being there. Felt alot better. Went back to class, and talked with nic, natasha, janna&jy. Janna said that she'll help me, so thank you. Coming back to class after recess was a joy, really. I hope tsk doesnt come tmr and the day aft. Nic and I were talking, and everything. So yeah, jy is damn weird lah, but oh well. Fun fun fun. At least got my mind of f-ing tsk and the f-ing whole matter. Oh please, its really such a f-ed up thing. Dont want to tell mummy abt it, becos i dont want her to worry. I'll just wait for the consequences. Its better to keep it to myself, right. Went for bio, talked to twin and everything.

B whole day didnt even msg once lah ): He's out now, miss him! B always knows what to say. Sigh, waiting for b to msg me! Alright then, i'm done venting! Bye:D

Shijie:Cheer up alrights, things will go well:D
shuxiangggg:Hahaha how was the fireworks?
elmo:Ha, not yet, people said the braces hurt.
aishyn:Whoa! Hahaha you see, it wasnt that bad right:D
Esther:Why didnt you come to sch today!:0
BELLE:Replied alr:D

Bf:Thanks for my presents:D Ily! I know you're reading this!:D

Happy seventeenth:D

School was as usual, nothing interesting happened. Maths test was bad. Boring :/ Went to see some person's blog, laughed my head off. Went to bf's place, and had lunch:D I did pushups:D He bought me my fav. oreo cheese cake:D And bought me lunch. He made so much effort to make today special:D Thank you dear! Bf makes me happy:D Today he bought me something really cute!:D I love the pooh holder, and i love the candy:D



Thanks for today bf, ily:D This is the best love i've ever had:D

5 more days:D

Bf is at the hotel now, and not fair, he get to watch NDP from his window! ): I'm so jealous! He invited me to watch fireworks:D Yayyyyy but not sure how i'm going to get there. But oh anw, i think i'll meet bf tmr!:D And also nehneh to send wj off!:D Its so early in the morning! But anyway, hahahaha. I'm so bored right now, so i'll do some random quiz. Also, i cant wait for monday!:D Yipeee, going out with twin!:D And might be meeting helena&yuhui. Not sure yet, but i think it'll be fun:D

1: Place your ipod on shuffle
2: Click next for every question
3: Use the song title as the answers

1: How are you feeling today?
Avril lavigneHot
2: Will you get far in life?
Ashlee SimpsonEyes wide open
3: Whats your best friend's theme song?
Jesse McCartneyJust so you know
4: Whats the story of your life?
Nine DaysAbsolutely (Story Of The Girl)
5: What was high school like?
Ashlee SimpsonLove makes the world go round
6: How can you get ahead in life?
Timbaland Feat. Tony Yayo & 50 CentCome and get me
7: Whats the best thing about your friends?
Corrinne MaySlow down
8: Describe your grandparents
Michelle BranchEverywhere
9: Hows your life going?
Skye SweetnamBilly S.
10: What will be played at my funeral
Backstreet BoysPanic
11: Will you have a happy life?
Gwen StefaniDont get it twisted
12: What do your friends really think about you?
Fall out boyGolden
13: Do people secretly lust after you?
Jesse McCartneyRight where you want me
14: How can you make yourself happy?
Hilary DuffCome clean
15: Will you ever have children?
Kelly ClarksonBreakaway
16: What song would you strip to?
Jessica SimpsonA public affair
17: What does your mom think of you?
Boys Like GirlsUp against the wall
18: What is your deep, dark secret?
Jonas BrothersWhen you look me in the eyes
19: What is your enemy's theme song?
Daniel PowterLost on the stoop
20: Whats your personality like?
CiaraGoodies
21: What will be played at your wedding?
Chris BrownRun it
22: Which song would you have sex to?
Michelle BranchYou set me free
23: What song would you suddenly scream to when you have the fits?
Petey PabloShow me the money

LOL. Super fun lah:D Okay, shall do another one next time. Yay:D Alright time to go, bye!:D

I'm living in the past

Many things have happened so far. I miss my bestfriend so much. He seems to have disappeared ): I want my old best friend back. There are so many things i haven't told him yet ): Bestfriend come back! ): ): ): I neeeeed to talk to you. I got alot of things to tell you. I miss my bestfriend ): I want to see bestfriend soon ): ): ): ): I wish best friend can be with me till the end of time. I think i'm over senstitive, but thats me. And only best friend will put up with my nonsense ): and make me happy. Sigh, i hope bf calls me later!

Alot of things have been going around becos of the chemistry retest. I mean alot of things have been written saying that cheated here and there. Discrimination, and everything. Its so frustrating. Alot of finger pointing here and there. Please stop, because if you dont know and say, i think, or my friend said this and that. Then i think you shouldn't make assumptions.

Today was the connect singapore thing, and then this happened. So terrible, singapore drivers. All of us were waiting for a full one and a half hours to say a 10 second pledge. One policeman tried to control traffic, and this was what happened. Vulgarites.
http://www.blogger.com/video-play.mp4?contentId=73942be59bbc382e&type=video%2Fmp4t point

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SAM!:D I LOVE YOU!
I love sam dearest. I'm going to see you soon:D Yipeeee!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE GERARD AND UNCLE CHEONG
Their birthday is on the beijing olympics, so cool:D Having dinner with my family, pictures:D
(Updated) Yes, i'm home from the birthday celebration!:D It was fun fun fun. Took photos, but too lazy to upload all. We took at 8:08pm. LOL. Seriously v.funny!:D Okay, pictures!

















Yay, happy birthday to both my uncles! Talking to bf later:D Yay! Tomorrow is national day, i'm in such a happy mood:)

Stay forever

School was school. Many unhappy things, i want things to be better. Sigh, please dont be sad anymore nehneh, please cheer up!:D:D:D:D Stayed back for chemistry test. It was alright i guess. And then after that, went to see dear dear best friend:D Bestfriend gave me many hugs:D Ily best friend!:D:D:D Tomorrow will be a better day. I still got a bit of stuff to get, so anyway, its just going to be better. Tomorrow brings new hope.

30 Seconds To Mars

LIMYINGQIHahaha alright, i'll pass you your letter tmr!
DeniseHaven't met in ages, and it sucks. Meet soon? When are you free?:D
LippyHahaha thanks bestfriend!:D

Yesterday went to teach little children how to be holy, and then aft that went back home for chinese tuition :/ Dont like chinese! And then grandma brought be to town to get my stuff:D That vintage store is having some mega sale, so if you want to buy some stuff, better go and get it now! Trained back with grandma.




Aunty pat&aunty jaq was at my place:D Yayyy, i haven't seen them in so long lah ): Cant wait for uncle gerard and uncle cheong's birthday, its this friday:D Yipee and on saturday we're playing pinball. Whole family, yay!:D I cant wait, and on sunday, i want to eat buffet:D Bestfriend said he's treating me to eat, HAHAHAHA. I love bestfriend:D Okay, so sunday it is. After buffet, got to go back to church for some briefing. Dont know what it is though, but should be about the overseas mission trip.

Today went to school. And i was late. Stupid, didn't know that it was at the hall. Screw, its the 1st time i'm late. Dont want to be late anymore. Had PE, played softball. Didn't manage to finish watching the show Hotel Rwanda. Went for recess, talked alot with daphne, and dont worry I'll always have your back <3 Many things, many things. On the bright side, wrote letter to yq, and going to communicate through there. Tomorrow will be a better day. Went for history lesson, and i kind of enjoy history lesson. Mrs Tan told us abt the history of nanjing. Omg, damn gruesome. Then went back for math lessons. Nic, natasha and i were like choosing stickers instead of listening to the math teacher. I understood what she said, but i still think mrs yeo is better.
Did not stay back for maths today, because i came home to study. Called mummy and told her that i did not want to stay back because this teacher cant teach and she said if its like this then dont need to stay back cos she knows i wont pay attention and i could use that time to study chemistry. I love my mummy! She didn't force me to stay back cos she knows that i'd rather study chem. So on wednesday i might stay back. Tmr got chemistry, so i'm memorising most of the things now. Must study hard for chem. Do it well:D Chemistry is after school, and it is a 50mins test. Mrs Tan said that its harder, so really must try to do my best.

I believe that tomorrow will be a good day. From now on, i shall study hard because i cannot slack anymore. End of years is coming, and i must do well so that i can enjoy my holidays:D Chinese olevel this year, trying to ace it so that i maybe can use it as one of my subjects in L1R5. All the way until sec.4 no more slacking! Bye now!:D

Its a beautiful lie,
Its a perfect denial,
Such a beautiful lie to believe in.
Its time to forget about the past,
Its time to wash away what happened last
Hide behind and empty face
Dont ask too much the same
Cos this is just a game

I love my bestfriend,
I love my mummy,
I love my family
I love my friends:D

aishyn:Hahaha good lah:D Have you done 2.4?
Kenneth:Thanks! Its forever by Chris brown
LIMYINGQI:I love twin too!:D When is teeter bs coming up!:D Help me with background pretty please:D
Jiayu:Hahaha yes i know! Your camera was seriously invaded by xy's horrible zilianess.

Someone help me with background please?

Hello:D Today went to school, everything was pretty fun! Came home and slackkkk:D Anw, got picture from jiayu's blog. LOL. Xy is such a camwhore, take so many photos and put as other people's dp ._.


Going to the club later, watching some movie :0 Mummy and daddy want to watch, so me and grandma going. I came home and drew. I want to set this as my background! Someone help me pls!:0 Hee, i hope b waits for me later:D




Twin going to set up teeter.bs.com! Yay, cant wait for it to be up:D Alright got to go, bye!:D