/feeling tired

Just woke up, but still feeling damn tired. Maybe i'll take an afternoon nap! :)
slept really peacefully, aircon on the whole night :)
today's Friday and again, didn't do anything constructive during this week.
just wasted one month doing nothing. so annoying.

I want to do my hair, its in a horrible mess now.
still lying in bed, can't get off it. I'm such a pig.
I miss playgrounds, and swings and slides ):
can't wait for sleepover, seriously.

need to get new stuff and everything.
alr bought new books, must look through them later.
but right now, I think I want to go to sleep again :)

/if she's so pretty then go like her la!
):<

/I'll only run far enough so that you'll miss me

Can't sleep, lying in bed right now.
Every night before you sleep, thoughts usually run through your mind.
Tonight I'm wondering, what will happen tmr.

Next year is a new year, a new beginning for everyone. Sometimes you think that tmr will be better, but sometimes you just can't.
Maybe its time for change. Finding new things, finding answers, finding somewhere to belong, somewhere to feel safe.
The only thing that doesn't change is change.

Its like you're finding something, but you don't know what if is.
Once in a while, if you could turn back time, you would have wanted to change something that you did wrong.
But then you get tired of chasing something thats not real.
Finding answers that you know will disappoint you.

Meeting people that you know, and having thoughts about other things.
half the time, you think that you'll regret whatever decision that you've made.
but take the risk anyway.

close your eyes, pretend everything's going to be fine
even if you know it won't be.

/My heart is empty without you
Sometimes you don't know what you do
And I need you tonight
I'll fall asleep and it's alright
Close my eyes and I'll be by your side

went out to eat again,
bought tintin's series:D
heee, sharing it with yenyeee.
the adventures of tintin!

went to heeren to eat,
and then went to HMV, bought my stuffs.
boys like girls:D
also got timaland's cd, haven't listened to it yet :/

watching teeve with grandma now.
waiting for the nine o'clock showww.

bored, bored.

/jump jump!

today, went out for lunch, and then came home and continued watching heroes. HEEE:D




"HELLO NEW YORK! YATAAAAA!" heee, nasi oka is so cute, HA HA.




mmm, i think hayden is pretty pretty:D

heroes:D, i love i love.

watching the chinese show now, so horrible :/
they go bully the mentally got problem boy.
horrible, horrible! ):<

tmr need to go paragon, return stuff to grandma's doctor.
i love yaki tori:D
heeee, happy happy.

/lets get lost tonight

tired, went to IMM for lunch, ate ajisen ramen:D
happyhappy:D

after that, bought my heroes dvd:D
good, now can finish watching the series, yipeeee.
but decided to watch hairspray first.
then whole day just watch watch watch.

after that, got ready for the dinner party, so boring :/
sat there and barely ate.
i'm tired tonight :o
tmr tmr, going to be boring :/



yenyee is adorable:D

/you're bittersweet,
you've got me off of my feet.

today woke up and then picked yenyee from playschool.
went to united square, and watched the dora show, cause yenyee wanted to watch it.
so horrible, no space to sit, so eventually went upstairs to watch the show.

came home, been you-tubing until now:D
watching incredible tales, heee.
tmr is saturday :/
boring, haven't gotten my books yet :/

haven't even started on holiday homework, can't be bothered.
just ate dinner, and then saw the newspaper.
some st.hilda's girl scored 294 for psle, omg?!
genius, super gifted.

my birthday party is postponed, HA HA.
haven't planned when yet, maybe sometime next week, I HOPE!:D
miss quite a few people.
i want to see bestfriend soon!

i saw that orange teddybear hon:D

/happy birthday

today, woke up and then went off to meet hon and nat.
went to changi airport, went to explore terminal 3.
and then went to swensens.

after swensens, we went to pasir ris to ride bicycle:D
so fun, but very hot! :/
and then cycled and slacked.
sat on this big big rock, and nat had to look for his wallet cause he lost it on the way! :x
but eventually found it, goodgood.

hon picked seashells for me, yay:D
and then i blew the 100plus bottle, as like a candle!
ha ha, many many wishes inside.

after that, went to novena, to eat dinner with my parents.
happyhappy:D

many many people wished me:
thanks,
feel really happy, you made my day:D

i'm fourteen:D

/the one i can depend on

tomorrow is camp
really dont feel like going :/
no enthuciasm, totally ruin's the whole thing doesn't it.

birthday coming soon, but really dont want to celebrate,
i've lost the spirit of celebrating my birthday.
right now, i just need to find something.

i feel as though i have to find something,
like something's missing.
but i dont know what that something is.
continue finding, until i find it.

i'm tired of feeling horrible.

i'm not a perfect person,
there are many things i wish i didnt do.

/ Never let me see you cry
You locked it somewhere deep inside
Baby, baby let me hold you tight

went to school, met daphne, late together.
but then teacher all also dont care, so good.
found out about blank&blank.
helena looks so sad :/

after that, went to amk hub to eat ichiban,
shared with daphne the drink, and its damnit expensive there.
rather eat at sumo's house.
then talked alot alot,
about stuff that makes everyone think.

helena hear all the sad sad song then down there like want to cry alr :/
must perservere okay, dont give up.
then walked around with daphne and sat at the orange wall place.
told her many things,
and then we met max.

thanks for accompanying me homeee:D
i'm so tired,
need to rest, seriously :x

super happy, finally can see everyone again.

dont be afraid,
i'll be right where you are.

/when you go would you even turn and say i dont love you like i did yesterday

today went to school to help with the sec.4 grad, and it was good.
the decorations were nicely done
mmm.

went to j8, followed jiahui, and then shirley was telling me stories
after that, just made it in time for grad.
crying alot, but i didn't cry.
didn't feel a thing really :/

after grad, ran with shirley and dorothy
i was talking to dorothy, she was telling me alot of things :/
about stuffs in our cca.

didn't know there were so many problems, really.
like how people pretend to get along,
and calling of names.
well, she said at least the sec.2 batch isn't that bad,
compared to hers.
dont know why my cca is like that.
drama and debate :x
so unlike the sec.4s, they seem so damn united.
i guess they were the scotch tape to stick everything together.
but they're gone.
dont know what will happen next.
sigh, sucks.

great, i left my pencilbox there.
nevermind, i need to get it back tomorrow.

/love will keep you up all night

my mind's blank, i dont know what to say
although my mind is filled with words and thoughts.
try typing something, then erasing it the next.

maybe its just because we've grown apart,
but i can't read your mind anymore,
i dont know what you're thinking of already.

its funny how one day you could feel like you've got everything,
and then next you realise that you're so empty.
i dont know why you think i hate you,
because i dont.

promise, we wont expire soon <3!
promise me, you'll be here for me.

its not that i can't live without you.
i can live without you,
i just dont want to.

/right now.

yesterday, finally could sleep in peace:D
talked on the phone at night, at 12plus, talked at 1plus and slept at 2 sharp.
woke up and saw a message:D

today, finally got my newfuture stuff. going to go back another day to get some more!
cheapcheap:D
ate my pepperlunch, beef pepper rice, yummm.
came back, and then watched teeve.
cleared up my cupboard
no space alr, need a new cupboard!
ikea shopping soon, and then school on friday:D
yay, happyhappy!

went back to school yesterday, was fun.
just sat around, talked to everyone.
ate mcd's, and then heard many many stories.
funfun.

daddy's present came today:D
friday is class placement!
eeeek.

/ i need you like a heart needs a beat, but that's nothing new

couldn't sleep last night, kept tossing and turning.
got to go back to school today,
well, the good thing is that at least might get to see a few people.

yesterday, you didn't call
sigh,
nevermind.
i'm going to go get ready for school.

I loved you with a fire red, now its turning blue

happy eighth<3!

/you've got me ten feet off the ground

just got back,
feeling abit tired.

need to go back to school tmr, to go back and make cards for the sec.4s
really feel like sleeping in,
but there's nothing to do, so, hmmm, i'll just go to school then
super not enthuciastic at all,
sucks.

ayeeee, home is boring
i need to go to amk central
zara shopping with helena and jiahui
many many things to tell daphneeee
i need to go walkwalk-ing
talked to daphne!
was fun:D
thanks for cheering me up!

going to school on friday,
yay:D
hugs, many!
and gracethen, wenjing, i'll miss them so so much D:

feeling damned no mood now
tiredtired:x
can't wait for the outings,
can't wait for my birthday, cause people still remember:D
i need to go walkwalk-ing,
fast!

facebook is so complicated,
i'm going to stop using it already
unless i really have nothing better to do :/
word.
teeve, now.

boring, holidays are boring.
you look forward to them,
but they're no fun after a while.

/love will keep you up all night

i'm still up, not tired, surprisingly.
really glad that daphne's back
someone to talk to, again.

got into biochem class, not the C one though.
sigh, dont know about stuff.
i'm afraid i'll be all alone next year.
new class, dont know who's going to be in my class
hope there will be people i can talk to,
like about stuff.

i need to work hard next year
but i'm not sure if i'll be able to make it.
i say only, maybe can't even do it

i dont like studying
tired of studying.
dont like having to stay up late,
thinking that i wont pass the testpapers.
dont like the feeling of being alone.

the one you hate to love is made for you
tired,
can't fall asleep again
going to make the christmas decorations for my family
i'm going to celebrate my birthday with my family&friends
my fourteen-th birthday,
i'll make sure i enjoy it.

for once, i want to be happy,
not be happy for everyone else to see
i'm not sad,
just tired of being something i'm not
someone be my listening ear?

how would i know this would end,
before we begin?

/So every day I try a little harder to forget,
I’m here to convince myself tomorrow will be better

i've been pretty down these few days,
but thanks jiahui so much
and thanks ahshu, for listening to me yesterday night.

jiahui came over yesterday to accompany me
met her at school, then went down to novena, ate sakae
went walkwalk-ing
bought a really cute handbag:D
i owe her ca-ching!
shopping cheers me up
jiahui buys so many things!
but its fun walking around with her,
HEE:D

then we both took a photo to see how we will so like when we are 60
walao, look like, err.
the face all discoloured.
scary

walked really far back to my house
was supposed to run with jiahui, but then i too tired,
so i didn't.
sorry! :/

i miss daphne,
a whole lot.
many many things happen
daphne sure know what to say,
i need daphne

/ineedyoutoo

/its too late

apogise
I'm holding on your rope
got me ten feet off the ground
and i'm hearing what you say
but i just can't make a sound
you tell me that you need me
then you go and cut me down
but wait

you tell me that you're sorry
didn't think i'd turn around and say
that it's too late to apologize, it's too late
i said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

i'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
and i need you like a heart needs a beat
(but that's nothing new)
yeah yeah

i loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
and you say
sorry like an angel, heavens not the thing for you,
but i'm afraid

it's too late to apologize, it's too late
i said it's too late to apologizes, it's too late
it's too late to apologize, it's too late
i said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
i said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
i said it's too late to apologize, yeah

i'm holding your rope
got me ten feet off the ground



woke up this morning,
eyes, totally painful :x
mood totally crushed ):
at least jiahui coming over tmr to accompany me
thanks:D

sigh, i dont know.
feeling tired, just got back from lunch,
feeling awfully awful and useless too
my mood's been crushed these few days
i need some cheering-up.

what do you want?
i want back what we used to have
we're not what we used to be
can i have that?
impossible.

/headlight disco

today, woke up early.
and then went to IMM to eat, ajisen ramen
i think its nice:D

jiahui talked to me,
she's coming over on wednesday to accompany me
thanks okay:D

today, mood's very down ):
made quite a few decisions,
sigh

watched movies today
rumour has it&the holiday
it was nice,
liked the holiday.

going to watch some more teeve later,
i'm a teeve addict

i feel lonely,
very ):
someone cheer me up.

/happy birthday

today is popo's birthday
too lazy to upload photos

too bored,
not a good day today.

/ just do it with love, love, love, love

daddy just got the imac fixed:D
but, omfg, it was 1000 dollars to repare. OMFG?!

sigh, superbored now.
stupid ipod, not working.
humph. everything's getting spoilt.

damned tired,
just got back from vivo
ate at marche, goodness, the food is so oily.
and i was super suay, humph.

outside, the cows were really cute:D

was drizzling, so accidentally fell asleep! :x

i miss many many people ):

birthday in 20 days:D